Dear die-ary, I keep getting muscle spasms and it's pissing me off. Anyways, I'm going to tell you about how yesterday was! Yesterday was really awesome. I went to walgreens. I don't have much to say rn tbh.
Dear die-ary, I watched the new season of futurama! I did last night when it came out, and I enjoyed it! I'll talk about it a bit more on another part of my website. Anyways, after that, I went to sleep aand now I'm awake! Anyways, this is probably gonna sound really stupid, but I was sooooo pissed off yesterday for, like, no reason. So, GayMan watched the animated pilot and watched someone read the comics of the eltingville club. (idrk how to properly word that uhrghhrghrrgh) Anyways, I like that comic! Uhmm, yeah, idk, I got upset that my friend got into smth I like. I mean, I'm over it now, but it's like... first, Pants gets into DC and now GayMan gets into The Eltingville Club?? I mean, luckily those aren't really my main interests tbh. Well, I really like DC, but I still have Futurama!!! I'm soooo awesome and optimistic, yeahhh. rghrrhgrhg ok uhmm i hate my friends bammmmm!! That's not true, I love my friends. I think I'm just kinda self-centered idk. Ok, what am I saying?? I'm very self-centered. Trolli, you're a narcissist!! Anywaysssss, I say anyways too much. It just kinda pmo how, like, I enjoy that thing! And now my friend enjoys it. Like, I wouldn't really care if they just enjoyed it casually, but when they get rlly into it, it pmo. Buuuut, it's fine! I'm over it!
Dear die-ary, I'm very excited for futurama season 13, it's coming out in about 7 hours on hulu!!!! Anyways, let me get you caught up on what's been going on. So, yesterday and the day before (Saturday and Sunday), I was @ Penis' house!! I slept over. I got to sleep in his new bed that I helped pick out! It was nice; he doesn't have bedbugs. Also, being @ his house and stuff makes me realize further just how badly my house sucks. But I'll stay optimistic because I KNOW the future is better. I don't have to live in "hell" forever. Teens always have angst or smth idk. I'm a teeennnagerrrrrrrrrrrrr!! A super awesome teenager. Anyways, Penis and I made soup! It was cheddar brocolli or smth like that. I cut the vegetables 2 weeks ago and I got to use a cheese grater for the first time!! I did such a good job and I put sooo much love into that. A while after we finished the soup, we ate it! It was rlly good other than the fact that we added too much cheese and the vegetable pieces were too big. Anyways, THIS IS THE PART WHERE YOU LEARN A LESSON!!! SOUP IS EVIL!! After all of the love I put into that soup, IT STABS ME IN THE BACK! I was in SO MUCH PAIN!!! It was so bad. I CLOGGED PENIS' TOILET!!!!! I TOOK A MASSIVE SHIT AND THEN ALSO ANOTHER SHIT THQAT WAS LIKE WATERY IDFK!!! It was sooo bad. Now, Penis didn't really care and he said it was fine, but I still felt like a bad guest. I mean, at this point, I'm more than a guest, sooo I guesssssss it's fine idfk dieeeeeee die trolli die!!!!!!!!! Yesterday, I talked with Ramen on a call! It was nice. Goodbye.
Dear die-ary, I'v been watchin more porn latelyy also immm my brain inst working rgiht so i might not be making sense. It's hard to w ord things and thype at the mome t. I'm not doing very good, i wfear the world is ending. sleeeeepy i should sleep. i sont sleep tohuhg im just tired. my friends undertstand me but i feel mainly alon ein the world. i neeeeed myself i need me so badly genuinely i make myself so happy i love myelf i understand myself i dont need anyone else but IM MTSLEF I WANT ME1!!! i want me but not as myself i need myself i cant fucking kiss myself on the cheek i cant give mysel fa blowjob i cant!!!!!!!!!!!n i cant. i can kiss my lips in the mirrror mirror reflection i cant feel the skin. i can only kis smy lips. I could kiss photos. its not the same as a real human. im so [pathetic i wantt a loverrrrr i want ME i want to be my lover. im so sexyyy and beautiful i want myself I NEEDDDDDD MYSELF dso badly dudeeee. if i cant have myself then can I atleast have a girlfriend???? I want a girlfriend. I'm fucking lonely and I barely get to see my friends anymore. whyyy must they go to skool/?? stupid education./ i knoww my friends are here for me. there. but they all have their own numnbeer oness. patns and gayman have each other. ramen has his girlfriend. and i knowwww that ick, penis, and mee are a trio but it feels like the two of them could just leave me idk man im like the stupidest one in our group! im fucking useless. im nobodys number one. my friends love me and stuff, yeah, but i still feel so fucking alone. nobody loves me like i love me. nobody will love me like i love me. nobody even CAN love me like i love me. I have to be my own number one. i feel so fucking replaceable. it used to feel likee i was a leader; someone my friends look up to. i now realize that im not better than them at all. and though it hurts to admit, i was never eally much of a leader. liiike i own the uhh server idfk and i have my name on things, but that doesnt make me a leader. i sorta claimed the role, but im not a leader. im such a natural born leader tho ngl!!! but i dont think my friends see me as such. im a fucking idiot. I dont know anything. I END UP ASKING SO MANY DAMN QUESTIONS BECAUSE IM SO STUPID AND NAIVE AND I DONT KNOW JACK SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!! i fucking suck. sooo yea im replaceable !!!!!!!!! i dont evenhave an importannt role in my friend grouspss im just a fuckingg loser. such a fucking loser a loser thats so damn in love with hhimself. why???? why is he like this??? trolli why are you like this??? why is he in love with himself when hes so damn horrible?????? is he even human???!?!?!????
Dear die-ary, it turns out that nobody in skool liked me. Other than staff members and the, like, 5 people that I was actually friends with, everyone disliked me. I mean, it is natural to hate people, I would know, but I'm still pretty flabbergasted that SO MANY PEOPLE HATED ME! Most people in the skool fvckin' hated me. Am I seriously that much of a damn weirdo?? I'm so great, what the hell!! I wish I would've known sooner, honestly, I feel like such an idiot now. Also, I'm just talking about middle skool rn! Middle skool was evil! Who gaf?! Damnit, I'm pretty sure people didn't like me in elementary skool either now that I'm thinkin' about it... they went to my birthday parties, though! I have friends, though, so it's fine if the majority of people hated me. I luckily don't care too much about them! It makes me a bit sad, yes, but those people don't matter; for that, I am very grateful.
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