Dear die-ary, everything's been such a fucking blur. I'm eating pizza rn while typing this. Pizza with cheese, that is. Yeah, buy the vegan some pizza with cheese. I feel shitty rejecting it, though. Also, I say that I'm NOT vegan because... well, I be doing ts. AGHRGHRGHR jus8t 'cause some bitch gives me it JAHAHHAJH. Like, okay, mate. Liar. I wanna die. No I don't. I feel so guilty being myself. Like, oh, okay, you're queer... and vegan... hmm... Does this even make sense? Who's being asked, I ask. Who? I'm eating the whole pizza. Not because I want pizza. Okay.
Dear die-ary, they gave me pastries. Why would they get one pastries. I don't even want to eat anything. Also, I should say, I refuse to eat meat AT ALL. I think I might maybe eat poultry or fish? No shellfish ever. I dunno; it's been a while since I've had poultry or fish. I think maybe I wouldn't. I hate cheese. Cheese can kill itself. I guess, for the sake of, uhh... not wanting to call myself vegan or vegetarian when I'm not those things(?), I'm pollopescetarian. Eating chicken is kinda. :/ idk. Okay, bye.
Dear die-ary, sorry for being so fucking inconsisstent. I'm a liiiiittle drunk i ikidna? andhigh i think mostl high holy shit. hy maybe im also ust tired and malnouriishedn idk i havent eaten anything real in since like before yesterday. anyways hi dude . Insanity;s beeen coming to get me. but thatss ok,. uhm. mot rlly idk. my memory's been really shit. it feels like i just came into existence recently if that makes any sense??? i can still remember a bit tho? this year's been such a blur. more so than the rest of my life before. idk wat i was doingn before this.someone's autistic that all i rmmebr i read that on a thingy adn. the hell even is my life anymoer man holy shit. i dont wanna be insane. i go to the psychiatrist sooon this month. not soon this month but soon/ as in this month. i KNOW this thigny doesnt make much sense and it s scartered but dude actualy hrrgh cant rn ohb mghos.. ok. i kinda dont really wanna be inssane. i feel ive been rlly uselesss lately. holyhiy. my friedsn just rtexred me sorry im back i think im just tired.. i can go out today later ive beennnn invited. i xoong think i actually hate my friedns dude im sorry i love them a lot. the guys i talk to on discord i lovevyou guys and these other fukcers i hang out with irl i love yall i just feel detache dsometimes but really you gugys are great im srory im an asshole. only if youre reading this coz u probably arent. udj.holy. ow my head sddued my cock. my blls itch dud ehyw my pubes stabbing me stopp it. 02:16
Dear die-ary, it's been a while. With my return, I bring new date format. I'm a liitle high; I hope this makes a lot of sense. Where did I go, one might ask? ANSWER!!: I started writing in a physical journal becoz I was uhhmm scared or smth.?? I dunno1!! Hey, though. Also, IDK wut I was yapping abt last year uhmm... I'm not quitting shit, mate!! OKay. So, why;d i come back? Becaiysee I kept forgetting to write in my journal. UHmhm I might just switch between the two icl. OKAE, BYE!
Dear die-ary, everything sucks. Not really, but I've had a bit of a bad feeling as of late. Anyways, I went to my friend, Penis', house on saturday. It sucked; Penis is such an asshole. These entries seem pretty negative, wow. Actually, it might come as a shock, but I am a very positive guy. I'm sooo happy-go-lucky, you wouldn't believe it. Anyways, Penis, if you're reading this, I only think you're an asshole because of the fact that everyone is an asshole, includingthough I'm one of the biggest assholes. Anyways, I had a lot of fun. Yesterday, I didn't do crap. Today, I also didn't do crap on account of the fact that it's only six and a half hours into the day. I should probably mention one of the main reasons as to why I feel crappy, so I will. I listened to one of the voices in my head this morning and they told me something very interesting, I won't say what it is here, but I followed their directions, and it turns out that they lied to me. I hope they don't take too much offense to me typing this up here, but if they do and they're reading this, please know that I didn't mean to offend you. Goodnight, die-ary. Live long and prosper.
Dear die-ary, it's new years! So, here's the first entry of 2026. If you're wondering where I've been, to make a long story short, my PC charger stopped working. Anyways, my birthday's coming up soon, so I'm pretty excited for that! Also, the holidays were great! I just recently found out that Adam Sandler's jewish, so I watched his crappy Hanukkah movie with the lady that gave birth to me. It sucked, but I liked most of the songs, and it made me cry. Yeah, there's not much to say at the moment. Uhm, I guess I could reflect(?) on 2025 since it just ended... It was great! I met a lot of new friends... Friends that I kinda hate, but if I kinda hate everyone, that doesn't really matter much. I'm less mentally ill than last year, even though, according to Asshat, I'm "clinically insane". And, oh my god, I just sneezed so hard it made my ribs hurt. My fucking allergies are so bad wth!! I think that's it. #schizophrenia #wap #idontcareifyoureblackwhitegaystraightortrans #iamgoingtokillmyselfunlessyouallstarttakingitseriously
Dear die-ary, last night was awesome, but right now, I feel like shit. I threw up, like, 3 times already. I felt like I was flying, but now I'm falling... into a puddle of barf... Fucking hate this. I've never had it so bad until just now. Kinda wanna quit after this. Also, I think people have been catching on, so I'm bailing. I had KFC yesterday, that was nice. The cashier was super friendly, too, she gave us free stuff! I really wish we had given her a tip. Also, I kinda left you on a cliffhanger with the last entry! Asshat's birthday SUCKED!!! I fell asleep shortly after writing entry #51, and Asshat fell asleep as soon as he came back from skewl. Also, they only gave me one damn cupcake. Yeah, that's, like, it. Other than that, GayMan keeps nagging me and it's pissing me off. Don't even know why I'm friends with any of those assholes.
Dear die-ary, I haven't slept. I don't know if I am going to sleep any time soon. Today is my biological older brother's birthday. I'll call him Asshat here because I hate him. Asshat went to skewl... When he gets home, we're probably going to have a "family" dinner at some fancy place like olive garden, as per tradition. I don't know if I brought this up before, but my dad died when I was younger; like, 8 or something. Even before he died, he was absent.... Enjoy the lore-drop. Anyways, I am very excited for my brother's birthday. That's like, it. Also, I would like to apologize for a lack of die-ary entries and for a lack of detail in my die-ary entries. It's not like anyone reads this anyways, but this website is sentient, so... Yeah, there's that. Love you, website!!
Dear die-ary, since I don't have a phone, I'm going to log my calorie intake here. Anyways, as of right now, I've had 1,120 calories since waking up.
Dear die-ary, I just woke up. I pissed and it smelled like KFC gravy. I want KFC. But, instead of KFC, we got... I'm not even gonna name it cuz it fucking sucks. Yeah, nothing much to say rn. Okay, bye.
Dear die-ary, I lack creativity when it comes to naming entries here. I'm very cold. I'll tell you what happened yesterday, on the 29th. I was hanging out on my PC, like, all night on the night of the 28th, after typing up the last entry. I had plans to go to my friend, ICK's house on the 29th at about 15:00. I was sleepy. I put South Park on my PC and watched it for a bit until I went to sleep at around 11:00-13:00... I dunno, I can't recall. I woke up at like 14:30(?) and started getting ready at about 15:00. ICK had come to pick me up at about 15:40. I had a fun time at his house, though the time I spent there wasn't very long. We mainly just talked, watched some YouTube, and ate dinner. My biological grandmother had come to pick me up from ICK's house at about 18:50. We went to the store to get some cough medicine. I was very helpful since I'm a cough medicine expert. (not really) I'm so fucking cold right now. I've been typing this for 15 minutes. I went to sleep at about 03:50 today. I woke up at about 19:30. Why is it so cold. I think I'm done typing here, uhm... Oh, yeah, ICK has some tickets to go see Five Nights at Freddy's 2, and he invited Penis and I to go with him! I'm probably gonna go with them. Okay, bye!
Dear die-ary, I have no clue what to name this entry other than the lame-ass shit I just put as the title. I have decided to add a section on my website for dreams! I will start working on that shortly. I slept horribly. I woke up just a bit ago, at around 17:00 because my mom was killing a cockroach nearby. I was very cold and uncomfortable throughout the nightday and my wrist is very itchy. But, whatever, good morning anyways, cruel world!
Dear die-ary, I am going to ignore the fact that it is now the 28th of November and, therefore, no longer Thanksgiving. I am sooo patriotic and shit. Yep! Americaaaaa. Okay, whatever, I'm done with that. Thanksgiving fucking sucked. It was the same as any other day, except we ate food my grandma cooked instead of white trash fast food for dinner! Yeah, it sucked. My biological mom and biological brother are sick, too, so we didn't even eat dinner together or anything. We just did the same shit as always. I FUCKING HATE THIS OLD LADY!!! I enjoy how the red redbull tastes. I also tried some vegan marshmallows and they're good. I wish my friends had better reading comprehension. My friends are genuinely so stupid sometimes. CAWCAW!!!
Dear die-ary, I got to sleep in the bed yesterday. I didn't really give much information on what happened on the 22nd, so I will do that right now. Gah, I got distracted. My friends started messaging on Discord while I was typing this. Anyways, it's 00:20 now! So, on the 22nd, I left about 20 minutes after saving die-ary entry #45. I went to the library and started reading some book by some master debater. I thought it was gonna tell me how to be good at debating, but I read a couple of pages and it was just about this guys childhood. And then, he explained the Tower of Babel like it's a fact. That was the point where I went "fuck this" and put the book back where I found it. After that, I read a Star Wars book. They had Star Wars books in the non-fiction section... maybe they know something we don't. Okay, moving on, I went to sleep in the bed on the 23rd at about 02:00! And then I woke up at about 17:00. I haven't really done anything since I woke up. I've been typing this for about 15 minutes at this point, wow... I usually tend to not type with so much "..." because I think it's pretty cringey, but for some reason, I decided that I don't give a fuck here. That's kinda funny in my opinion.
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