MOST NAMES HERE AREN'T REAL!!! I like to protect the privacy of those in my life (even if they're ASSHOLES), so I won't be using their real names unless I get permission. The shit that I say here's true, but most proper nouns have been changed.
TLDR: I made up most of the NAMES written here.
Dear die-ary, I'm so fvckin' sick. I think it's a stomach bug? I'm unsure, but it's so horrible!! I've been, like, glued to the toilet for HOURS!! HOURS, I TELL YOU!!! I'm in so much pain. My butthole hurts. A part of me was debating actually writing this and shit but uhmm idk it's not like anyone reads it. And if someone does, then ig that's their own fault! Be scared of my website and how much information that isn't needed gets shared here! Shake, quake, and shiver in your boots!
Dear die-ary, guess who isn't giving the toilet more trauma at the moment!!! Me!! I feel so much better! I'm not sick anymore, I'm eatin' some rlly good pineapple slices! Yaaaayyy!! Now it's time for me to provide way too much info about my horrible diarrhea. Anyways, yesterday, I went to the doctor! The psychiatrist, to be specific! It wasn't fun; idk why I'm typing this out so enthusiastically. Anyways, she changed my prescriptionnn and all that junk idk... But, like, let me tell u what happend b4 we left!! It was so bad. Okay, so, first, I went to the store and shit, right? And THEN, I'm home, and I go to the toilet and I have the worst watery poop ever, it was so bad. So fucking bad. This happened at about 1500, so I was gonna be late for my appointment! I was late for my appointment, but it's fine, everything went well. Other than the fact that I was in such extreme pain thru out the whole damn thing. And, to make it worse, I didn't sleep in a while, so I was extra irritable! After that, I go home at about 1630, and I'm, like, glued to the fucking toilet. These pineapple slices are so good; I loooove pineapples, they're my second favorite fruit (second to bananas!!). Anyways, I was miserable like that until some point between 0100-0300?? I ended up taking a nap! BUT THEN I HAD TO GET UP TO GO TAKE A SHIT!!!! At about 0400, I was back on the toilet! ZOMG MY FUCKING MOUTH HURTS OWWW EVIL PINEAPPLES!!! I forget that pineapples eat u or whatever. They're still second best, even if they're evil. Okay, my mouth hurts a lot. Anyways, I was in SO MUCH PAIN! Like, it was genuinely so horrible! I wouldn't wish that upon anyone (I lied there, but whatever...), especially not myself! (TRUTH!!!) I can't even properly explain how agonizing last night was. I finally was able to stop shittin' at about... well, a bit before I started typing this out! Also, I've been typing on here so much lately MAINLY because I've kinda lacked the energy to talk myself outloud or to talk to Patricia. (I never really had any meaningful conversations with her, but I know she'll never leave me, so I tell her stuff!!(Also, I used her real name cuz she isn't as real as she thinks she is, tbh. I didn't ask for permission because I didn't need it. Who even is she?? Barely anyone knows of her existence. Sometimes, I even question her existence! I do A LOT, actually. (IF U DO KNOW HER, DON'T TELL HER I SAID THAT!!!))) ZOMG I've been typing this for over 30 minutes!! O.o I think I'll wrap this up... Thanks for "listenin'". Dunno what to call my digital diary thingy. Tell me ur name next time, maybe.
Dear die-ary, I still feel scared. I don't wanna say that I know it's gonna happen, but I srsly feel like all my friends are gonna leave me. I feel like they're starting to hate me. What if they never even liked me to begin with?? I'm so damn scared they're gonna leave me. I don't want them to leave me. I don't want them to hate me. I feel like I need to be ready for them to leave me. I feel like I need to prepare. I don't fucking know how to do so, though. And what if they don't leave me? What if I'm just making myself seem like a fucking idiot for even having that thought?
Dear die-ary, I don't even feel like looking in the mirror. Usually, that's what I do to make myself feel better because idk I jus' like looking at my face. But no matter how beautiful I am, my friends probably hate me!!!!!!!!!! I cant fucking take this i cant do this dude i cant have them leave me . nevermind. who needs friends??? smh !!! notme !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! what the fuck
Dear die-ary, I am feeling very fearful!! I dislike this. I'm so fvckin' shaky dude like it's srsly not funny I hate thsi I feel like thw world's gonna end. amd by the world edning i mean that my biological brother's gonna find out the shit i've been doing and yell at me.uhrurhrgh I knoww it's not that big of a deal if he yells a me but im just scared man i dibt hnoliek nbeing scared im so fearful spookied im so spookied inm shaken!!!!!!!!!!
Dear die-ary, I keep forgetting this website exists lmao!! Anyways, I'm probably, hopefully gonna go to skewl this year!!! I'm soooo excited... I've also been single for way too long! I haven't had a girlfriend in over a year!!! That's fucked up imo. Especially cuz I'm so cool and handsome?? I'm also super charismatic, like, I have A LOT of friends!! Why won't any of them just fucking date me?? I'm so attractive. I wish other people could see how damn perfect I am. Anyways, I'm not feeling as silly as usual. I wonder what would happen if anyone found this page. By anyone, I mean people I know. I've shown this site to one person I know irl but uhmm yeah idk. They'll probably want me out of their lives, wouldn't they? diediedieeeeeeedieeeeeeeedieeee!!!! DIE 1!!!!!
Dear die-ary, I've decided I'm gonna write here more!! Seriously, I keep forgetting this site exists cuz my memory is such a bitch! But, I'm HOPEFULLY gonna remember that I can write here! To my knowledge, nobody reads this shit, so I don't have to worry about my words having real-life consequences! And by real-life consequences, I mean when my biological brother yells at me and calls me a narcissist cuz I decided to be a petty asshole and rant about my mom to my friends...
Dear die-ary, I HATE how time passes by so quickly. Like, it's hard to keep track of idk. I also hate how evil my mind is!!! Like, the way my brain doesn't work right. I know I'm mentally ill, but can my fucking brain just stop being evil????? please?? I hate being sleepy, too. I'm so sleepy rn and it's fucking hellish, dude. And ik I say this almost all the damn time, but human bodies SUCK!!! They suck so fucking badly. Especially mine! My stupid body affects me more than any else's body affects me so ofc I'll say that. I'm so confused rn actually cuz I love myself so much, but I wish I was different? I wish I was better. It's such an odd thing because I've acknowledged the fact that I'm perfect but I feel like I should be better. How can I be better if I'm perfect? "nobody's perfect" they say. They clearly haven't met me. Can you improve on perfection? I AM perfection, but I can be better. Who even cares about me? I don't mean, like, who cares if I live or die, cuz ik there are people that'd be sad if I died, but I mean who cares about what goes on in my head? I talk too much. I love myself!!!
Dear die-ary, I fear I might be in love. I don't know what to do about this, especially since I don't think he feels the same way. Adding onto that, I've never dated a guy before sooooo yeah. He's, like, a rlly good friend of mine, too! I don't wanna ruin what we have. I don't think I've had a crush on anyone in years. I've been single for way too long. It'd be nice if I could date myself. I love myself. Like, c'mere, Trolli! Marry me! You're so great and perfect and hansome, I love you! I wish I could marry myself. I mean, maybe I could, but in the future. I'm too young to get married and settle down... If I were to date someone else, though, would I be cheating? What the fuck am I yapping about. I think I love him. I really like the idea of a relationship. I know honesty's the best policy, but I'm too fucking fearful. I don't wanna tell him. I want him to know, tho. Anyways, I was eating this popsicle stick!!! I loooooove popsicle sticks!!!
Dear die-ary, EVERYTHING SUCKS!!!!!!!!!! I hate everything, apparently. I got caught up on tadc which was nice!! I loooooove Gangle! She just like me fr!
Dear die-ary, it's been a while! I just had a super hot makeout sesh with a mannequin and you missed out... tragic indeed. WE'RE SO BACK, THO!! ^^
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